Life in Morocco

I haven't blogged in a long time mostly because I have been busy , life has a funny way of sneaking up and distracting us since I last posted a lot has happened.

To catch everyone up on what has happened I will be brief summary here goes , I have a special needs 4 year old Princess a 3 year old Monkey (boy) and was on bed rest most of 2013 pregnant with Bouncing baby boy , he is now 10 month old . In January I came to morocco to visit my in laws and still here I am .

Life in morocco is different to say the least no one recognizes mental illness and they just give in to the children's whining if they whine for candy then they get said candy  .

I had health issues and had to go off all my medications which hasn't been easy it has been really hard and no one seems to understand what it's like , my moods are all over the place and I hardly sleep to keep from dwelling on how I feel at night I stay up and watch old tv series on my computer , I would crochet but I ran out of yarn two months ago and am still waiting to betaken to the store to buy yarn I was told tomorrow well tomorrow has never came.

Everything happens in super slow motion if you want something it's always tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow still waiting for tomorrow .

becoming a Moroccan housewife

Ok I have been fighting becoming a stay at home mom and housewife !
Yeah I know some people long to stay home and keep house other are wrapped up in their careers, then there are those who don't have a choice in the matter and either have to work full time or part time to ear earn a living .
I have a choice and my choice is to stay home and raise the children .......................
A bit of background so you will know were I am coming from I was born and raised in the usa my childhood was far from normal , lets just leave the childhood at that best leave the past in the past no need to open old wounds and hurts.
I reverted to Islam in 2004 and the next three years were a trying time in my life.
I married a Moroccan in 2006 and then set about life as normal worked crazy hours for the next few years in 2008 had surgery to untwist my tubes also was in a car accident 3 days after the surgery the car accident messed up my back , neck and hip have seen countless doctors and no one can find a way to relief the pain .
Had a daughter in 2009 and after 3 months on leave returned to work but decided that the work was to much  on top of breastfeeding and caring for a infant , also have always struggled with depression all my life . When my daughter was 8 months old I got pregnant it just happened one day I was fine and busy with life then the next I was pregnant and barfing over the smell of everything the first part of the pregnancy was rough had a cyst and something called a subchorionic hematoma which is a scary way of saying a blood blister inside between the uterus and the placenta and I was on bed rest for a while which is really hard with a very mobile baby who is learning to walk .  now I have a healthy baby boy he was born 2 days after my birthday , my daughter and son are 17 months apart and for the first 6 months of my son's life his sister disliked him and would be mean to him now she has finally accepted him and plays with him but her idea of play isn't always nice she loves to play rough and tumble .
I will be posting about my struggles on becoming a housewife and stay at home mom