winter update

Life has a way of getting in the way of my blog I am sorry that life has been so chatioc that I was unable to blog for a while ..................
here is a brief update on my life so far I have seen the doctor for my head ache and started physical therapy for my head ache it has helped zip head ache is still here ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have seen a mental health person and she has increased my dosage of medication doesn't seem to have done anything but medication takes time to work.
Both children have been sick with a nasty virus and we had alot of winter weather had some snow and a bunch of rain then alot of flooding so been stuck in the house with 2 sick cranky stair crazy children.

I feel like I have no friends here I mean there are people who I chat with online but that is the extent of our friendship.
I lack a support system here I don't have anyone I can rely on if I need to I feel lost and adrift .
I feel like the muslim sisters here have formed their own groups of friends and they are in some ways cliquie I don't really feel like I have any friends ..................................................................
I haven't been sleeping well I have tried working on my sleep I go to bed at the same time every night I sleep poorly I have weird and scary dreams and when I wake my whole body is sore and stiff , my body aches and my joints and mucsles and bones make popping and cracking sounds

New year new post

Ok Ok I guess I should keep up on my blog but been quite busy life has a way of getting in the way and I have been working really hard inshaallah I have been getting my prayers done alhumdullaah
Seen my doctor and been going to physical therapy for my head ache ................................
Had my depression medication adjusted and Alhumdullah have been feeling better the other day I actual cooked just for the joy of cooking and I haven't done that since I don't know when , will post the recipe so others can make it as it is very yummy.
I have cleaned and rearrange my house yet again this time it is super easy to keep clean I have gotten rid of a bunch of clutter now if I could just figure out how to get baby girl to beheave then I'd be all set !
Have been working with early entervition program and her doctor refurred her to a temperment progam and am working with them as well been working on getting her to sleep at a regular time which isn't when ever she wants I gave her a 730pm bed time still working on getting her to go to bed at that time man sleep training is hard as is teething and alot of other things

Update on depression

Ok ok I know it has been a while since I have posted I have been busy getting the runaround I have a appointment inshaallah with the doctor on January 3rd to talk about my depression yeah I know it is almost a week away but it was the very first appointment they had ..................................................
Still trying to figure out the head ache thing so far physical therapy hasn't help any pain still there so is the nausated and dizzness , blood tests came back normal so not that now just have to go step by step feel like a rat on a wheel sometimes .....................................................
Still struggling with my prayers Allah help me find the path back to prayer why is it so hard to pray .............................Why does my mind dart from one thing to another???????????????? What is going on why do I alway feel so dam tired and am not able to sleep ?
Been better at house cleaning but still feel so sad and lonely as well as unable to sleep .
I seek refuge in Allah

head ache update

Been a while since I have posted to be quite honest I have been very busy life seems to be moving at super sonic speed with taking care of bint and ibn as well as trying to keep the house clean and dealing with the unending head ache yesterday saw a physical therapist and she confirmed that it is indeed cause by the muscles in my neck and shoulders being  being so knotted up she gave me some stretches to do 3 times a day and also some strength  excises to make my should blades stronger and help relieve the pain in  my neck she said the pain will get worse before it gets better so I am following her advice and will keep you all updated