update:

as salam alikum sisters
I haven't posted in a wile because of  life since I last posted a lot has happened , I have had another baby he is now 3 months old while I was pregnant I was on bed rest for 6  and a half months which is no picnic

and is quite mind numbing boring being in bed all day every day is so hard on your spirit and it messes with your mind I also fell into a deep depression and am now just digging myself out of it

I have sense had my baby he was healthy and is doing well now am just dealing with day to day life